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The following is the entire Review which appeared in both Breathe Magazine for Breathwork & Rebirthing, (UK) http://www.breathe-mag.co.uk/102.html and The Healing Breath – a Journal of Breathwork Practice, Psychology and Spirituality, (US) http://www.healingbreathjournal.org/thb71abstract.htm

Margaret Coyne (2005): Breakingdown, Breakingthrough: My Thorn-Paved Road to Healing via Altered States and Near Madness. (Self-Published, Dublin, Ireland).

This book is about one woman’s difficult, often agonising journey to emotional and spiritual well being through Holotropic Breathwork. And what a journey it has been. In 1992 Coyne’s brother-in-law who was also one of her closest friends died. This kick-started a period of deep depression when she “couldn’t even bring myself to carry out basic hygiene functions” (p. x). The depression was characterised by frequent episodes of altered consciousness which she could not talk about to anyone. She was also drinking heavily. Finally, in early 1994 she met a therapist who eventually introduced her to Holotropic Breathwork. Over the next two and a half years she attended 30 breathwork sessions. Some were one day events, some held over three days. This book is the diary she kept throughout those years.

Coyne meticulously chronicled her breathwork experiences. Even if the diary entries were written immediately after each session, her power of recall is astonishing. Each session is documented, the insights gained are listed and even her feelings on each day following the session are set out under the headings of “morning”, “afternoon”, “evening” and “night”.

Coyne’s was a tough journey. She worked through incredibly painful feelings and experiences of childhood sexual abuse, fostering, adoption by parents who were at times nothing short of abusive, an eating disorder, her birth, multiple losses, etc. Her writing style is very direct, almost painfully so, as she evokes the pure terror of episodes in her life. The effect is that the reader can feel the rawness of the experience, the emotional wrenching apart of a child subject to abuse, of a baby being born, of a woman losing control of her life and desperately in need of help. The writing is at times powerful and it evokes deep empathy with the author and with the suffering some people have to go through in life.

This book is a very raw and real illustration of the pain that can arise from events children appear to have survived unscathed: birth, adoption, fostering…It’s also a very graphic description of what it is like to revisit the old wounds through Holotropic Breathwork. Coyne does point out that many holotropic sessions are quiet and peaceful, but the majority of what she describes was very dramatic as well as physically and emotionally painful. As a rebirther I certainly have never experienced or witnessed anything like what Coyne describes. I don’t know whether the anguish of her experience would put people off going for breathwork sessions or attract them. For this reason it might be risky to give this book to prospective clients. It could, however, be very valuable for existing clients who still aren’t sure of how the process of breathwork unfolds as well as for students of breathwork. It would be a worthwhile addition to the reading lists in schools of breathwork around the world.

At the end of her thirty sessions Coyne fell into a very deep depression for which she was hospitalised for a short time. She sees this as a spiritual emergence prompted by breathwork, rather than a breakdown. After the hospitalisation she took a break from breathwork. But for Coyne, it was all worth it. She was “privileged…to experience [her] suffering”. (p.251). The ‘breakdown’ “was in fact heralding the beginning of [her] breakthrough to recovery. Sadly, not everyone saw it that way” (p. xiii). She was heavily drugged in hospital and had a difficult time getting off Seroxat afterwards. Part of her hope in writing the book was to “encourage these people to reconsider their routine use of strong sedation of patients on their immediate admission to hospital, especially cases of deep depression”. She left hospital “high as a kite without ever once having dealt with the underlying cause of [her] depression” (p.250).

For people who have never been exposed to the phenomenon Grof describes as spiritual emergence, the concept can be tough to swallow. And this is where Coyne could really come into her own as an author. She has experienced it, she has been hospitalised and has survived. Her opinions therefore are not just based on a crazy theory. They have the credibility of experience behind them. But the emergence and hospitalisation come right at the end of the book. There is no room to go into detail about either and I think she needs to do this if she is to have an influence on the state mental health system. The book is self-published and therefore, as the author points out, does not benefit from the services of a professional editor. This is a pity. A professional editor might have curtailed the diary format which can be repetitive at times. This would have created space for a discussion of the spiritual emergence and the inappropriate treatment of it in hospital. Hopefully Coyne will turn her very obvious writing ability to this aspect of her experience in the near future. Such a book would have a good chance of attracting a publisher.

Catherine Dowling, Eire


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book-cover.jpg“This book does not come with the additional benefit of professional editing. As such, its contents are the raw and uncut narrations of my two and a half years of inner exploration through both “talking” therapy and a process known as Holotropic BreathworkTM. At times, certain sections of the narrative will not make for easy reading. However, it was only through re-experiencing the painful events described that I was finally able to let go of the anger and begin to forgive my tormentors but most of all, begin to acknowledge and accept myself for who I really am….” (Back Cover).

One day while I was sitting at my computer I happened to look up at my shelves and saw the three large ring-binders each containing the detailed handwritten accounts of my thirty Holotropic BreathworkTM sessions and thought I really should do something with those. I realized what a shame it would be to leave them there gathering dust when they might be of some interest or indeed help to perhaps breathwork facilitators in training, people considering embarking on their own journeys or maybe someone already in the process of dealing with their own demons. I decided there and then I was going to put them into book form.

The most enjoyable part of putting the book together was deciding on the cover, although to be honest it didn’t take a lot of thinking about. The idea came very quickly, inspired by an image I had following one of my sessions – a foetus connected by his umbilical cord to the Universe. He was so beautiful, gently floating in space against a background where pastel shades of blue and pink merged into one another.

I had fifty copies printed, most of which I both sold directly and through a local book shop and also gave a few copies to friends and some professionals.

I would be delighted to discuss my sessions and also to hear from those of you who have your own breathwork experiences.

A selection of my Breathwork Sessions can be viewed at: www.primal-page.com/coy.htm

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